+*"~..ShAnDy..~"*+

Sunday, July 17, 2005
Dilemma

things are not going my way.... :(

friendship.... something juz happened. dunno how to talk about it. dunno how to deal with it. dunno wat i should do... juz got caught in between. neither ways neither conclusion is wat i want... tell mi wat to....... i'm lost... troubled and hurt some times.... thank god... everything seems like its going to peace down quietly... hopefully..

work.... i'm in a dilemna.. shall not elaborate.. till... mayb when i feel like doing so... can't wait to take up bachelor in social work. but $$... sigh... aw!!!

again can't remember wat i did. my memory is failing...

thur, after work, i went down to buona vista met zhen and buddy. for the degree bachelor in social work preview. erm... about the same as the one held in school. as usual we are late for the talk. miss the ist half. really can't wait to take up the course... well.... erm.. after the preview, the 3 of us went for late dinner. and a good chat with them.. reached hm ard 10 plus i think.

fri, at my work place... Dr Dinesh Nair.. rem my cardiac girls? his dad is a patient of us. so he came to our clinic. surprising he remembered mi. he was sitting down initially.. i already saw him when he stepped in.. then while i was at the counter... doing some paper work, he came to mi and asked.. "hey u looked familiar.. where do u work previously?? SGH??" i smiled and replied.. "yea.. had my attachment at NHC.. for 6 months.. "oh.. no wonder..." he smiled.. then before he left the clinic he asked again, "when was ur attachment??" "erm bout half a yr ago..." and then he smiled,"i see... take care... bye..." seriously didn't know he is so amiable... erm... quite a nice man.... after work on fri.. i went down to meet my girls again... basically this whole wek had been meeting them... almost everyday i think.. but couldn't remember wat we did... hahaz... fri i waited for them at harbourfront. then we headed down to enter to meet yanting.. and we had dinner together. then went billard for a while....

sat.. went to work.. after work went down to TTSH for an interview.. erm.... its a cancer centre... buddy is working there.. starting from aug.. xinni and minyi is leaving coz they're going into UNi. let mi describe the job scope. basically.. all the admin work, registration work, discharging, billing, making appointments, making calls... etc.. but wat attracts mi is i'm able to deal with patients. talk to them.. coz the person in charged asked if i've lotsa patience?? wel... i've no idea... but she wants mi to be able to listen to the patients.. coz esp for my side... subsidised patients... they will feel very depressed after chemotherapy. they will nag, complain and be very upset and stuffs. so she needs mi to be able to tolerate that.. and of cos patients would call and talk to mi as well.. and i'm suppose to call patients and check out their situation.. coz they are all subsidised patients meaning quite a number of old helpless forgetful patients. i'm kinda attracted coz i want to take a degree in social work... isn't it kinda related?? i told her my plans of taking up e degree. she is very positive and even encouraged mi to do so. she thinks young pp shld have their own dreams.. she also added that this job can help mi to gain experience.. and she even said when i want to study, my working time there is negotiable... erm.. sounds great isn't it? but still i'm not confirmed yet.. haha.. she will call mi on monday.. lets pray... zhen... thanks for ur advice.. but... guess i'm pretty sure of wat i want now... to be a lifelong cardiac technician... nah... not my kind....... after sorting out my thoughts... i think i would grab this opportunity if there is.. anyway if i stayed on in my clinic i wouldn't have the time to study part time degree le... coz they're sending mi on course... for a year..... and think i'll be dead by then.. working then have lessons after work and on sat..... if i'm gonna work here...... most prob i'll take up the degree...... can't wait to study social work... aw~!!! now let god make the decision for mi.. if they call.. i'm going for the job... if not i'll stay in my clinic work for 2 yrs then save up for a full time social work course.

i'm praying hard!!!! god bless....

after my interview, i went down to causeway to meet ting and hui. mi and hui met ist for lunch at pastamania. hehez.. then ting brought her bro and 2 little cousins. soo cute... they are mischevous but very funny... so adorable...... we went to catch the movie ~fantastic 4~ wow... nice movie.. some touching scenes, very funny, kinda comedy... haha... and of coz the heroic scenes... wow...... nice... ting drove.. so we went back to her place. it was almost 8pm when we reached her place. mi and hui was stucked to the tv for 2hrs.. haha... then ting drove us to gombak to buy supper. ting went home.. and we bought food back to hui's place and then ate with her family. and i waited for hui to finish bathing then hui drove and went to pick her dear... then my dear... back to my place for mahjong.. hehez... the 4 of us played till 4am i think. then hui and her darling went off. dear stayed at my place.. he was soo tired... mi too.. fell asleep almost immediately.

today.. sun.. woke up ard 1plus. met dear ard 3 plus. went down to suntec.. coz he wanted to buy his levis stuffs. but erm... didn't manage to get anything. anyway we had fish and co for dinner. seafood platter for 2.. yummy.... :) went to walk ard... wanted to get a new phone for myself..... nothing i like....... reahced hm ard 8pm. came hm for a hsort rest while dear went home to get changed to book in. b4 he book in he came over to my place met mi for a short while... then went back to camp le..

Love, Shandy.
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