+*"~..ShAnDy..~"*+

Monday, October 10, 2005
i'm beginning to love my job..

work for last week was hectic... plus lisa is on MC for 4 days. so work eventually piled up for mi and wong. but alright still manageable. anyway... the emotions i had developed for my work. it pained my heart when i see patients groaning in pain, when i see patients totally demoralised knowing the fact that they had cancer. i felt sad when i see them upset and worried. some even rejected chemotherapy which is the only treatment for cancer because of the cost. believe it or not. it sounded dramatic.. but its a real life situation. of cos there is some satisfaction as well. some patient's conditions improved and stabilsed. while some jus come in and tell mi that the doctor told them they only have 3 months left. how sad..

one scene... (translated from chinese-hokkien speaking)

patient a: "hi... so how is ur condition? how are u doing?"

patient b( depressed): "hai... life is so unpredictable. when it comes nobody can stop it. i feel so helpless. meaningless in life... the doc says i only hav half a year... then wat will happen to my 2 children..."

patient a: "c'mon dun be so demoralised. there is always hope. because of ur children u have to believe in miracles. like mi.... the doc says i only have 3 months.. i cried for 2 entire days when i know my condition.. but when i realised i made all my loved ones cry with mi, i decided to be strong. one of my friend also have the same illness. the doc says she only had 6months... but after a year... she is still doing well... so i had to believe in miracles.... u have to believe that cancer can be cured and u can be cured.." she gave a smile...

oh my tian... it really touches my heart when i heard their conversation. both were our chemo patients for that day. sitting side by side... one is so optimistic while the other so pessimestic...

this is my job.. i had to always explain to the patient about the financial assistance we have. we had to persuade the patient to do chemotherapy sometimes as well when they refused. we had to let them know the side effects of chemo... like loss of hair which not everybody can accept. vomiting and extremely low immunity... when i'm giving financial counselling, most patients would use medisave to pay.. some they don't even know tat their medisave only have like few dollars left... how pathetic.. hai.. then i have to seek help from medical social worker for them... its so sad.. even more depressing when patients passed away... hai...

well... this is my job.. sad but satisfied.. when patient recovered. they will always smile and thank us. even after every chemo session each day, most of the patients will thank us b4 they leave.. it feels great though... :)

back to updates of my weekends:

fri 7/10/2005: i met dear after work for dinner at orchard.. both of us were not hungry for the ist time.. haz.. so we jus shared a meal at mos burger. then we shopped ard for a while b4 kate reached. then dear headed home and i went shopping with kate. spend bout $100 again. oh my tian.. i went home ard 10 plus. dear went to booked tickets for the movie "into the blue" at JP. the movie started ard 12 midnight and ended ard 2am.. it was a nice movie i thought.. not bad... esp with sexy jessica elba.. oh gosh.. i really like her figure! then dear came back to my place.... and i woke up ard 6am for work the next day... :( sob sob... i was exhausted.. i finished work ard 1pm then i went home to change. and i went out to meet dearie.. we bought curry back to his place to eat.. i was so tired... almost dozed off at his place... then i decided to go home and sleep.. eventually i slept from 4pm to 8pm.. when i woke up i got a shock cos it was dark. ha.. suddenly couldn't even rem wat i'm supposed to do.. hahaz...

then i left home to meet jas, yanting & joe, hui & her dar, and of cos my dear. hehez.. we bought tibits and drinks then came back to my place for mahjong session.. hehez.. nanwei came ard 11 plus.. so the 4 couples... we played mahjong til ard 5am in the morning... fun fun... hui's dar such a joker... he made dear so amused.. he is the entertainer la... haha... ard 3am we ordered macdonalds to my place.. cos dear was hungry... and there came a joke... nanwei was the one who called and ordered.. but he said my name "shandy". how shandy sounds like a man?? the person on the line laughed... and when the food arrived... he came to look for "mr shandy".. wahaha... so nonsense... all thanks to jas's bf... hahah....

i was sooo tired......... after such long hours of mahjong... mi and dear lost $12. :( but ok... as long as everybody enjoyed themselves.. :)

okok.... so when is our next mahjong sessions peeps?? :P

Love, Shandy.
8:30 AM